HOW WOULD I RATE MY CONFINDENCE?

"In my mind, confidence is not arrogance. It is self-esteem." KJP  My confidence level is off the charts! I have assertive confidence to the point I will walk up to a stranger and try to make friends with them if I feel they are sad or lonely.  I fear my own brain more than I fear the world.  I try to keep control of myself but I just want to make others see how fantastic I see them so I assert myself more than I should and I think that may turn people off. (Don't you love my run-on sentence. I don't care if you do or not) 
I did not go to college till I was 30.  That is where I gained the confidence I have today.  I was in classes with teenagers and 20 somethings who could not write a complete sentence, paragraph or a complete thought! SO SAD!  How did these people graduate high school?  "No child left behind" needs to GO!!! It is destroying the minds of upcoming generations and they cannot think for themselves. This has led to a LACK of confidence.  I would watch these younger generations constantly asking their friends if they understood what was going on; almost as if they needed the approval of their friends.  Good Lord People, get a grip and gain your independence!  Watching these scenes of lacking confidence was heartbreaking.  I am however grateful because it gave me my push to be better and to prove I was a cut above them all.  I don't care how arrogant that sounds.  I was Phi Theta Kappa, Dean's List, Student Ambassador, Awarded for Photo Journalism. I worked my ass off in college and I earned RESPECT!  My professors singled me out and that boosted my confidence even more!
In high school I was intimidated by the popular and what I perceived as smarter peers.  This of course was not a truth but my inner critic was brutal when I was a teenager.  Now my inner critic can kiss my ass and so can the rest of the world.  
I am proud of who I am.  A poet, a published author, a heart failure survivor, a LGBT advocate and more importantly a mental health advocate.  
You cannot be these things without superior confidence and courage!

Wanna borrow some?

© 2023 "I see… what others refuse to see.
I am… what others refuse to be"
Lady Kate Phillips