TITLE: DECISION TO MAKE:

Remain locked in the in-between
          Draw on the chaos
And the words flow to the paper
          The glorious sight
A thrill that runs my spine
          And excited my mind
That I am able to manifest
          The hideous and the creepy
…so magnificent and heart wrenching the words…
Or do I let the Healer set me free
          Let the chaos no longer dwell
Not let it harbor and fester
          Will I remember what the chaos was like?
Will I remember the pain and be able to capture its spell?
So continues the battle
          To be free
Free of the nightmares
Of the demons
Of the scars
Or to remain
          And use the beasts…
To create the works of art
          That stirs others
                   …bring their adoration
Even the most dark
And evil of my pourings…
Out onto the pages
          Brings an extreme of emotions
To the other beings around me
I will miss the emotions I have wrought
          Off the soul of the other
That was moved by my words
By my writings
By my demons
By my chaos
©2014 Kat J Phillips

COMPANION POEM: WHERE I AM

Locked in the in-between,
Or let the Healer
     …set thee free,
Choices all around me,
     …continue to battle,
What will my fate be?
Close your eyes…envision,
Running…
The glorious sight,
A thrill that runs the spine,
      …excites my mind.
Through deserts of warm sand,
Run through oceans,
     …if be my will,
Through green covered land,
     …glorious sight,
To the very top of monuments,
Now leap,
     …and take flight.
The winds blasts my breast, Takes away my breath,
     …mind becomes so clear,
For a moment I suspend,
    …everything is dear.
Have I come around a bend,
Never wanting to end.
Flying back now to my eyes,
Open them so wide,
I am back inside,
But…
The wind has blown off my old skin,
Now rises a new blend,
Courage can begin to mend.

© 2022 “I see… what others refuse to see.
I am… what others refuse to be”
Lady Kate Phillips