Recently, I was in the hospital again! My heart was hurting and I could not breathe well enough to walk correctly. I was given Lasix through an IV push. This pulled eight pounds of fluid off my body. Too much at one time… and too late as well. My doctor promised me that from here on we would speak frankly with each other. No longer will he be sugar coating what needs to be said. I am truly unwell. I will never regain my former strength. My ability to work all day on my writings. I must rest and let my writing suffer. So is my new truth.

I will live many more years from now. I will continue on as I have for these past seven years. My heart is broken and has assistance from a pacemaker to beat correctly. And yet, my heart still does NOT beat as it should. My heart is not strong and does not beat fierce on a physical level, however on a mental level it does! My heart now resides in my mind. The true place of my spirit. The drive I need to continue on and leave my message of goodness and determination to the world. I will preserve the vessel I reside in long enough to share my “heart” and spirit of truth with the world. I want all to know what true happiness is. Happiness is resolving yourself to listen to the deep unending voice of the world.

I have listened and I am at peace in my life. How many years have I left? I do not know and I do not worry about that. I feel the energy that flows in this world and it gives me the strength I need. I listen to the people I meet in my life and take in their words and messages so I might share them with another person. This deep communication is the way we will heal this world. We must all come together, forgive each other and be as one. Selfishness and callous popularity contests must end. We must become communities and take care of each other. Only then will we be truly evolved and happy.

Ask yourself… what have you done lately that would be considered a kindness toward another? Have you only done for yourself or did you by chance help a neighbor, a friend or a co-worker? Even letting someone ahead of you in traffic is a kindness and a way to build good karma. Can you remember what it is like to do something nice for someone else? Do you remember how lovely a child’s laughter is? Do you remember the scent of the wind and the songs it sings? The blood in my veins may have slowed because of my weakened heart, but the fire to continue on flares true.

I want not for things of the material world. I want only for peace in my life and joy in my eyes. I want all to hear the kindness I speak of and find their own path to a peaceful existence. It is there, inside your own heart and mind, for they are one. We are all one if we so choose.

One heart and one mind, beating together, singing together, and living together to heal our world. Believe that it is not too late for humanity and we will conquer our fears. We will fight for our future. We will create a world for our children to be proud of. We will endure.

© 2021 Kat J Phillips Monday, May 10, 2021 2:28pm CST